Tuesday 18 July 2017

Getting Back In The Swing . . .

I faded.

I disappeared from the whole blogger community. I used to post twice a week, every week, religiously. I loved it. And not only did I fade from you wonderful people, I faded from my own creative self, too. I've been clinging on to that creativity for a good few years now, struggling and desperate not to let go - but then not doing much to help myself rescue it either.

I've suffered a whole identity crisis in the meantime, too. I've always been writing, as a little kid, all through my teen years and up into my adult life. It's the one thing I've always wanted to do, and the one thing that has always been a constant for me, and after publishing a few works online as well and my inclusions in anthologies, as well as personal projects that I've been working on, I was proud to call myself an actual writer. But then I wasn't writing. And if I wasn't writing, who was I? This left me confused and added to the struggles. In the end, I've just been meandering through life, not doing much at all to be honest.

I'm not sure why my creativity dried up. I could put it down to changes in work which have left me unsettled and therefore unable to get into it; a break which got me out of the habit of writing regularly, and a habit that I haven't been able to get back into...who knows. But one thing still remained, and that was the passion for my ideas. Even though I wasn't actually writing, the ideas still kept flowing, ideas that I love and would one day want to put down on paper - or a word document.

So, a little while back I decided to get my posterior back in gear and get back in the flow, and I've finally finished my novella, Tunnel. Can't actually remember if I mentioned it all those years ago in one of my last posts, but I originally started Tunnel (a zombie flick) for Nano way back when and then had a car accident which ruined that November flow. I still worked on it though at my own snail pace and eventually finished it. And now it's edited and polished and soon ready to go up on Amazon. I'm actually proud of myself and I will keep you all posted with that one.

Then also, out of the blue a few days back, I received a friend request on facebook from the wonderful Nick Wilford who inadvertently reminded me of the whole writer community sitting here that I had once been a part of and who offered support and inspiration (thank you), and so decided that I needed to get back here too. If you believe in fate, I think the signs are all there, finally aligning and telling me it's time to rekindle that creative spark. It may be hard and a struggle but I'm ready to give it a go...

So, deep breath and fingers crossed. Let's get this show back on the road...

8 comments:

  1. Great to see you back! Sorry I didn't follow up on your Facebook message; I'm quite sporadic on there but trying to get better. Anyone can get into a writing slump from time to time - it's getting out of it that counts, and the fact that there's no shortage of ideas tells me that this is what you're meant to do. Congrats on finishing your novella and putting it up for release too - fantastic! If I can help out in any way around the launch, just let me know.

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    1. Thanks Nick. I'm hoping this slump is over. We'll see. As for my novella, all I need to do is finish the cover and write a blurb for it, and then it'll be ready. I'm excited about this. Haven't felt this excitement for a while :)

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  2. Here's to finding your identity again :)
    It's not just you, most of the blogosphere is dead as a Dodo!

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    1. Thanks. Not just me suffering from this slump then...

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  3. Glad to see you back, my friend, and I can't hardly wait to read your new novella!

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    1. Thanks Blaze. Glad to be back. Will keep you informed with Tunnel :)

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  4. So not India then, but somewhere less exciting. I hope things go well. It's good to hear from you again

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    1. Somewhere very much less exciting :) Good to be back though...

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